Okay, for those of you who actually frequent my site to check up on me and what not, you know I haven’t been too active on my site for the past few months. Work, school, my daughter, family, and my relationship have kept me more than busy. The only reason as to why I have time update now, is because I am at school, I have a certain amount of typing time that I have to use up, and well… I have nothing else to type. So here I am.
Although I complain and what not about always being so busy and preoccupied, I’m loving every minute of it. I have purpose and commitments now that I have to face everyday. It’s better than sitting on my behind doing nothing like the rest of the people I know. Especially a lot of these “inet” people who do nothing but sit online and cause chaos as a means of entertainment.
I’ve been noticing myself daydreaming and thinking a lot about my future and what goals I would like to have accomplished by the next few years. I’ll be done with my medical assisting course around January 2008, but I really want to be a nurse. Unfortunately, all of the programs out where I live have a good 3-4 year waiting list. That’s how I ended up doing this medical assisting thing. On the plus side, when i’m finished, I’ll have enough training and knowledge to be able to just transfer into a nursing program instead of having to work from the ground up. So the following fall after I graduate, i’m going to do all I can to make sure i’m right back in school, in the first nursing program that I can get into. So, I’ll say no later than 2011, at the age of 26, I’ll be a registered nurse.
I’ve also been thinking about my living arrangements. My apartment is nice, the location is great, but some of the neighbors are getting out of hand. Plus being stuck in a 2 bedroom apartment forever is not what I intend on doing. I want a house. I want a lot of room for me and my daughter, a nice back and front yard, and a dog. Yes, a damn dog. a cute little maltipoo.
Before I do all that though, I want a new car. When I graduate in January, and get me a nice lil’ job at somebody’s hospital, doctors office, or clinic, that will be my present to myself. I want a 2008 luxury whatever the hell I see first. :lol: I’ve been through a good 3 cars already, none of the new, none of them fresh of the lot. I believe I owe that to myself. The house and crap will come later. :lol:
Marriage is another thing that’s been on my mind. I feel like i’m getting old as hell. I’m tired of these empty relationships I keep getting myself into. I’ve been going to church faithfully, trying to get my life back on track and behave myself. I deserve and need me a significant other who is willing to do the same. Willing to commit to me and the relationship we start. The relationship i’m in is going great. Other than the fact that somebody may be moving soon, but I just don’t think this is going to last as long as I would like it to. Some times you just know these things. Sometimes you just know when things have run its course. We’ll see. I can always be proven wrong. But if I can’t get what I want, and whets going to last, and something that is worth something, i’m going to let it be. I refuse to settle.
I’m really trying to settle into my reality. I’ve been living in a make believe, fantasy world of bullcrap in more ways than one, for a while now. Its time to grow up, make plans, and take action. That means letting go of a lot of things, habits, and people who are holding me back. Lose one to get one, right?
Eh, I don’t really have much else to bog about. If I do, it hasn’t crossed my mind, so it must not be that important to speak on. I guess I’ll just go and find something to study or something. I’m sure we’re about to start working on something new anyway.

-ms nesa d