Hello everyone…

I know some of you are wondering where the hell I’ve been, I know that others really haven’t noticed and probably don’t give a shit.

Anywhoo… I’ve been working my ass off and going to school faithfully and whole heartedly. Plus my fricken computer broke down on me and I refuse to get it fixed. I’m hoping to get a laptop somewhere down the road. I miss my site, and I miss keeping up with those acquaintances that have blogs I used to frequent daily. Maybe I’ll get one soon.

As I was saying, I was working. Back in October my family and I found out that my grandmother had colon cancer. She was in and out of the hospital all the way through mid November when she had surgery to remove the cancer. The doctors had given us a catch 22 on her diagnosis. They told us that her lungs and heart were both bad and that she a) wouldn’t make it through the surgery due to the bad heart or b) would make it bout would possibly have to stay on a ventilator because her lungs may not be able to function on their own after the surgery. Damned if you do, damned if you don’t huh? By the grace of God, she made it through the surgery without any complications. Unfortunately, less than a week later, she got sick while she was in the hospital. Fluid on her lungs, possibility the cancer had spread to her kidneys, and pneumonia. She was in so much pain, was so weak, and for a while we thought she wouldn’t make it. She did get better though. As far as the cancer spreading, we to this day, do not know for sure. There was no way possible that we would let her go through another surgery and series of test just to see if it had or hadn’t. She’s doing fine now though. She’s been living in Muskegon with my aunt and her family because she basically needs 24 hour care. That’s something I didn’t have the ability to do.

So, that is the reason I WAS working. So, all this month, I haven’t had to work. This is something I’m not excited about like others would be. I have rent and bills that I need to pay. Womp. I guess it’s not all that bad though. School is going great. I have a solid A average and damn near perfect attendance. I have about 2 weeks left before I start my 6 week externship. So it won’t be long before I am a CMA (certified medical assistant) and I’m sure I’ll find a job shortly after graduation. I’m hoping to go back to school to become a RN (registered nurse) but at this moment I have no idea how I’ll manage to work and go to school and take care of all my other responsibilities at the same time all over again. It damn near drove me crazy. I guess where’s there’s a will, there’s a way…right?

For those who are inquiring about my love life, u wouldn’t say it sucks, but it’s kind of blah. After all this run around with you-know-who, I decided right now we should just be friends. I’ve been super busy, and I think he’s more dedicated to the thought of me being with him forever than he is to actually being with me, period. I told him he should marinate on that thought before I jump back into a serious relationship with him. Until then, I am happily single. It’s not like he doesn’t get to see me every damn day anyway. 7 out of 10 people believe we’ll end up married. Eh, my views on marriage have been halted for a while, so I doubt that. I enjoy his friendship at the moment. The thought of knowing he’d take me back in a second, or will still do anything for me helps the situation to. I kinda feel as if I’m having my cake and eating it too. Hey, I deserve it…