1. I still love you, but I am no longer IN love with you. I was blinded by the love I had for you and didn’t realize how much of a sucky significant other you were. You will be miserable forever because you don’t know what you want out of life and you depend on everyone to fill the void in every way possible.
2. I wish you would stop falling in love with every man who pays you the slightest amount of attention. We’ve both had this issue, I grew out of it. I hope you do too soon, or you will never be happy.
3. If you ever really loved me the way you claimed and confessed you did, you would treat me way better than you do, especially when you’re supposed to be my friend.
4. I wasn’t wrong, you know I was right. I miss you, get over it and fix this or at least tell me to kiss your ass because you don’t wanna.
5. You seem like a really bitter bitch. You claim you’re happy with a perfect life, but your actions prove otherwise. You seem empty and you try to fill the void with superficial things. Doesn’t seem to be working. And stop being so hateful to those who have what you don’t or can’t get.
6. You two are the cause of your own unhappiness. YOU are in shit of a funk right now because everyone around you is happy and you aren’t. Don’t take that out on them, nobody is about to cater to your ego or emotions. And YOU just need to stop always thinking the grass is greener on the other side. You don’t give your grass enough time to grow because you’re to impatient to water it. Y’all need to stop dwelling on the past and the what ifs and move forward.

Nine things about myself.

1. I love being able to make people smile and laugh.
2. I am very kindhearted and I forgive those who treat me like shit with no questions asked.
3. I’m addicted to Lemonade, orange juice, pineapples and strawberries.
4. I don’t wear make-up but I like weave a lot because I’m always changing my hair.
5. I’m a pervert. I’m probably more nasty and sexually driven than most men lol. My baby loves it tho :)
6. My favorite colors are red and blue. Jose says it’s because I’m Dominican lol. (im not tho)
7. I LOVE Dominicans and the Spanish language. The Spanish…it is such a turn on. Tu Sabes -.-
8. I still believe in happy endings. The Princess finds Prince Chraming, they have a fairytale wedding and live happily ever after.
9. I love food. All kinds. I’ll eat just about anything. ALMOST anything.

Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Just be yourself. I want to fall in love with you, not multiple personalities.
2. Make me laugh. I will fall for the comedian before an athlete.
3. Always be honest with me, even if you think it might sting a little.
4. Little things mean the most to me. Invest more in them than over the top stunts.
5. Let down your guard and allow me to love you as much as you want to love me.
6. Love my kid just as much if not more than me.
7. Cook for me. If you can’t cook, I will appreciated a sandwich, bowl of cereal, or microwave meals lol
8. When it comes to sex, be more about the emotion, the connection, not just getting a nut.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. Him.
2. My career.
3. Sex.
4. The future.
5. Food.
6. Life.
7. Love.

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

1. Potty.
2. Shower.
3. Brush my teeth.
4. Turn off all the lights and TV.
5. Set my alarm.
6. Talk to him until I end up sleeping in his ear or vice versa.

Five people who mean a lot.

1. My daughter.
2. My mother.
3. My grandmother.
4. My stepdad.
5. My man.

Three things you’re wearing right now.

1. A headband.
2. Blanket.
3. A ring.

Three bands/singers that you listen to often. (not necessarily your favorites)

1. Trey Songz
2. Lupe Fiasco
3. Aaliyah

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. Get married.
2. Have a little boy.

One confession.

1. uhm, I love my imperfect body, but I can’t bang with the stretch marks. I’d get a tummy tuck if i could just to get rid of them. I still walk around the house naked though. idgaf lol.

Next time your girl wants to act uppity, tell her you’re trying to help her live healthier.

how can i like somebody for months on end, and it goes no further than casual flirting and friendly conversation? you obviously not checking for me like that, so why when I move on, you all of a sudden want my time and attention acting all cutesy and gettin salty when i’m not beat for it?

how don’t i even know you like me PERIOD, then all of a sudden you see me checkin’ for somebody else, THEN you breakin out confessing your love for me?

wait…what?
gtsoh.

Ex boyfriends and shit comin out the woodworks claimin they miss me, they love me, want me back, and are sorry for everything they put me through.

nigga, why now? is this a test?

any time somebody has my attention they don’t want it. soon as it’s not there anymore they jumpin through hoops, acting jealous and bitching trying to get it.

contrary to popular belief and against all gay acts and school girl giggling. i am indeed single. but i’m happy. i have no idea what’s going on but i don’t mind it. i just want people to leave me thee hell alone with all this out of nowhereness before you fuck me up and mess upwhat i got goin on whilst i am doing me.

so hey, fuck YOU, you, (you’re cool), and motherFUCK you.
stop blowing up my phone/email/text/smoke signals.

mkthxbai!

i just don’t question anything any more. 9 times out of 10 now, if i have to think on something too long, i just do the opposite of it and throw caution to the wind. Granted after it’s said and done, for a split second i go “did i just do\say that -.-”

seems to be working though. i’m a lot more happy lately. Life is easier when you just don’t care to stress, question, or over analyze things.

er..
the whole moving thing…
after looking at local real estate, i don’t think i want to move any more lol. well, not out of michigan that is.
the job market is opening back up, tuition is dropping, and cost of living is just OD cheap lol.
$1500 a month and i can get a three bedroom two bath condo with a fire place, upstairs, downstairs, and basement. uhm, yeah. if you can’t do better than that. i’m cool.

been looking around for jobs, but im trying to figure out how the hell imm go on interviews without getting fired. ugh. hopefully get the job and not worry about it i guess lol. sheesh.

Really trying to get to NY the first week of July. So much going on that I need to take care of, I wonder if i’ll be able to go :(

I promised I wouldn’t be sad or let down if I couldn’t go though. In due time, all things prevail. so hey, i have another 3day in September if all else fails :)

Amanda is getting married soon. holee fudgin’ BAWLS man -.-
I saw her in her dress and almost had a moment. she looked sooo pretty. *sigh*
Her an Steffhen are great together. She’ll break her neck for him, and he’d do anything for her. They fit, they work, they’re happy.
I wish them all the best. Though I still haven’t gotten my dress -.-

I wish all my friends happiness. I keep them all in my prayers daily.

i pray that stinky doesn’t let his situation with “her” turn him into a bitter man. you’re too good for that. you’re a sweetheart with a caring soul. don’t change that.

PB! This week needs to hurry by in the slowest way possible. i will pray and hold a candlelight vigil until Saturday. you deserve it, it’s already yours, just go claim it! I’ve prayed on it before and will continue to do so until all test, interviews, and callbacks are done.

All 5 of my friends who are getting married, having kids, recently engaged, i pray for your happiness. tis a blessing! hope it continues. :)

To all of those who aren’t as happy, i pray for you to. Im sure once you sort things out, your time will come as well.

oh, and you to sir. dunno what’s going on, but i hope you find yourself soon. seem a distant, pal.

damn this curse of wanting everyone to be happy. oh well, good karma brings blessings.

imma go play Sims 2 now.
btw… OMGWTFAPPLESAWSE! SIMS 3 IS ABOUT TO COME OUT!
*dances up the walls like an asshat*
yayyyy !

for the last few months i have been letting go of my inhibitions and letting life take its course.

stepping outside of my box has been scary…but running away from new things will leave me left with the same old same old, and i’m all about progression. so hey, rock with it.

today is mother’s day, and i have been overly thoughtful of my life, my future, and my future family.
It’s scary and uncertain since i am in no way close to being where i thought i’d be in my life when it comes to that aspect.

a lot of females get criticized for expressing that they want a husband, kids, and all that good stuff, but a lot of us do. i want to be the wife who gets up, gets her man’s clothes together for work, get the kids ready for school, and start breakfast then head off to my own job.

that’s just me. lot of people my age aren’t thinking about anything other than fucking, sucking, clubbing, and drinking. if that’s for you, then by all means, DO YOU. but me, i feel i’m too old for that. i’m trying to build a foundation for me and mine.

i had a talk with my mom and P.B. and both points of views gave me insight and made me realize a lot of things. i feel better about things not going as planned, because i know it just means something wonderful is going to happen when everything falls into place.
thanks for the talk. :)

so, starting tomorrow i am really going to get focused on ME. you can’t build a houe if you don’t have four walls, so i am gonna start working on my side of the frame, so when the time comes, me and that person can put things together and build our foundation.

this weeks focal points:

-redo resume
-career search
-call and fax in paperwork about my student loans
-look into nursing schools, even if i have to move to go…i need to do this. (i dont think i wanna be a CMA forever. tho…it wouldn’t be bad, we get paid quite well and its still the medical field. dunno, we’ll see)
-open a separate savings account just for future planning.

i think that’s enough for now.

so yeah, good night, God bless, and all that goodness.