1. I still love you, but I am no longer IN love with you. I was blinded by the love I had for you and didn’t realize how much of a sucky significant other you were. You will be miserable forever because you don’t know what you want out of life and you depend on everyone to fill the void in every way possible.
2. I wish you would stop falling in love with every man who pays you the slightest amount of attention. We’ve both had this issue, I grew out of it. I hope you do too soon, or you will never be happy.
3. If you ever really loved me the way you claimed and confessed you did, you would treat me way better than you do, especially when you’re supposed to be my friend.
4. I wasn’t wrong, you know I was right. I miss you, get over it and fix this or at least tell me to kiss your ass because you don’t wanna.
5. You seem like a really bitter bitch. You claim you’re happy with a perfect life, but your actions prove otherwise. You seem empty and you try to fill the void with superficial things. Doesn’t seem to be working. And stop being so hateful to those who have what you don’t or can’t get.
6. You two are the cause of your own unhappiness. YOU are in shit of a funk right now because everyone around you is happy and you aren’t. Don’t take that out on them, nobody is about to cater to your ego or emotions. And YOU just need to stop always thinking the grass is greener on the other side. You don’t give your grass enough time to grow because you’re to impatient to water it. Y’all need to stop dwelling on the past and the what ifs and move forward.

Nine things about myself.

1. I love being able to make people smile and laugh.
2. I am very kindhearted and I forgive those who treat me like shit with no questions asked.
3. I’m addicted to Lemonade, orange juice, pineapples and strawberries.
4. I don’t wear make-up but I like weave a lot because I’m always changing my hair.
5. I’m a pervert. I’m probably more nasty and sexually driven than most men lol. My baby loves it tho :)
6. My favorite colors are red and blue. Jose says it’s because I’m Dominican lol. (im not tho)
7. I LOVE Dominicans and the Spanish language. The Spanish…it is such a turn on. Tu Sabes -.-
8. I still believe in happy endings. The Princess finds Prince Chraming, they have a fairytale wedding and live happily ever after.
9. I love food. All kinds. I’ll eat just about anything. ALMOST anything.

Eight ways to win my heart.

1. Just be yourself. I want to fall in love with you, not multiple personalities.
2. Make me laugh. I will fall for the comedian before an athlete.
3. Always be honest with me, even if you think it might sting a little.
4. Little things mean the most to me. Invest more in them than over the top stunts.
5. Let down your guard and allow me to love you as much as you want to love me.
6. Love my kid just as much if not more than me.
7. Cook for me. If you can’t cook, I will appreciated a sandwich, bowl of cereal, or microwave meals lol
8. When it comes to sex, be more about the emotion, the connection, not just getting a nut.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot.

1. Him.
2. My career.
3. Sex.
4. The future.
5. Food.
6. Life.
7. Love.

Six things I do before I fall asleep.

1. Potty.
2. Shower.
3. Brush my teeth.
4. Turn off all the lights and TV.
5. Set my alarm.
6. Talk to him until I end up sleeping in his ear or vice versa.

Five people who mean a lot.

1. My daughter.
2. My mother.
3. My grandmother.
4. My stepdad.
5. My man.

Three things you’re wearing right now.

1. A headband.
2. Blanket.
3. A ring.

Three bands/singers that you listen to often. (not necessarily your favorites)

1. Trey Songz
2. Lupe Fiasco
3. Aaliyah

Two things you want to do before you die.

1. Get married.
2. Have a little boy.

One confession.

1. uhm, I love my imperfect body, but I can’t bang with the stretch marks. I’d get a tummy tuck if i could just to get rid of them. I still walk around the house naked though. idgaf lol.

Next time your girl wants to act uppity, tell her you’re trying to help her live healthier.

im so tired of people and mess with their exes. its cool if you’re friends with your ex, but know your damn limits. if you are still breaking your neck, going out your way, being lovey dovey, making kodak moments, spending hella time with your ex, then nigga…you are in a relationship. lmao.

and how you callin them your ex and they still running around calling you their man\woman. come now.

so does your ex, know they are an ex, or are you just flat our frontulating. hmms.

and please, if you two are not together dont be callin each other ya boo, boops,booski, mr, mrs, baby, honey, sugar shit. you confuse yourselves and others.

and if you for whatever reason cannot draw those lines, dont drag other people across them with you. nobody likes to feel like the third wheel or the other man or woman. so dont be tellin people you love them, wanna be with them, and all that goodness, when you aint really ready to let go of your ex. ESPECIALLY when the relationship is freshly broken. if yall just broke up weeks ago, yall aint friends that quit and somebody plottin on somebody. yall shouldn’t even be talkin like that at the moment. so if yall hella close super buddy buddy and shit, on top of you already doubtin shit, then nigga get back with her, and leave the 3rd party out of it.

hm.

to the left to the left…
everybody can be replaced. people can tell you how you’re so much more special than everybody, but there will always be somebody to squeeze you out of your place, especially when they can find somebody else to do all the shit you can.

i think im noddin off. lol theraflu coma coming soon.

errr…
i guess im shallow cause i believe i should be able to find a guy who i think is attractive. personality is a plus+++ but damn, i am not butt ugly…can i get me some i don’t mind staring at.

i crossed out a good ten things out my notebook ;]

that mean i’ve made some progress. i need to write a few more things, cause i need more progress.

i’m moving. don’t know how soon, but im really bout to get the wheels rolling.

mkay. i gotta go nite nite lol. shit got me goin.
i wonder if he’s sleep. i’d like to fall asleep in his ear -.-

You entered: tonesa domunique lagrone

There are 22 letters in your name.
Those 22 letters total to 103
There are 11 vowels and 11 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:
The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don’t want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person.

Your Inner Dream number is: 8

An Inner Dream number of 8 means:
You dream of success in the business or political world, of power and control of large material endeavors. You crave authority and recognition of executive skills. Your secret self may have very strong desire to become an entrepreneur.

Kinds creepy because a lot of it is true, even the numbers stood out to me.

i dont agree with ALL of it though.

1. Link to the person that tagged you, and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

Sem? eh...

1. this is a weird one, I can't eat big pieces of chicken, it weirds me out.
hot wings, wing dings, perhaps? mom doesn't like little pieces. go figure.

2. i'm a hopeless romantic who through all bullshit, believes LOVE conquers all.

3. i'm obsessed with my own behind. like, you didn't know.

4. i listen to music damn near 24 hours a day.

5. im in love with a stripperrrrrr asshole* yeah, he’s a confusing ass asshole.

6. i have taken spanish classes every year since 7th grade.
i can understand a bit, read it, make it sound fluent when i do…
CONJUGATE thee SHIT out of it, but i wouldnt know wtf i was talking about.

7. females irritate me, except for ones i know are real.
if i knew you were fraudulent, you wouldn’t get the time of day from me.
yeah, random trackback brawd, this means you.

back to work until midnight, snackcakes.

owww !

its 1:35 AM. I vowed to be in the bed at this time because I will have to be up at 6:30AM to start my 3rd consecutive 16hr shift. Go hard or go home, right?
Anyway, quick update…
I am gonna tag Shan. The others I will just randomly tag as I go. lol.
I have Thursday off, unless the offer me overtime. I have a very positive update I will post.
Anddd last but not least, some one told me a little amusing story today. Long story short, some people just wish someone paid as much attention to them as they think they do. They take the slightest little actions and blow them out of the water.
womp. lol. I say you don’t even sweat it because that would just humor her. See #7. Yeah, that’s her. lol.

-buenos noches, amigos.

that felt good. i may do this again. :cute:

ps. i find it amazing how no one knows who this “him” is, yet they all wanna compete with him for my attention.
psch. why is that?

The Half Experience
yessir, click that.

excuse the video. i’m just feelin real good.
out with the old, in with the new
focused on my goals.
validation !
had a awesome weekend.
was HIGHLY entertained, lol.
dusted off photoshop, what? even did a nice little photo manipulation.
pfft. must be sum’n in the wattuh, and imma keep sippin’ *two steps*
again, i curse too much, i need to knock that shit off, i know…
look, the video even caught me at a nice frame. shut, UP !
lol. imma go to bed. :biggrin:

baby please excuse my hairssssss ! LMAO. yo, i’m out…

Life just wont let me live
Always wanna take when I don’t have shit to give
Gotta admit, life is fuckin corny
Waking up some days like “this shit aint for me”
Starting to ask why, but why the hell not
But am I not tired of givin it all I got?
On my day off I’m wishin I was workin
No time for idle thoughts, no soul searchin
Just can’t win no matter how I try to play it
So much shit to say yet I don’t know how to say it
Feels really good when you really don’t care
You can think that shit but your heart will take it there
Cant have friends, females always try to outdo me
Cant date these niggas because they only wanna screw me
Try to be helpful, but people take advantage
Do you not see that I can barely manage?
Think you hustled me, you really hustled my kid
“I didn’t get new stuff”, well I bet he did
Niggas always say borrow like they gon give shit back
Kindness is weakness, that’s a known fact
Why a bitch gotta do me dirty all for a piece of dick?
Come at me on some bullshit thinking she slick
But its them slime ball bitches that niggas go for
Act like a slut, the niggas will love you more !
I’m on some real shit, chill shit, the type you make your wife
But those the type of females a nigga DON’T want in his life
Niggas are ass backwards in their ways of thinkin
You can tell them real shit but it just wont sink in
You can say it verbally, poetically, shit, put it in an e-mail
To some people you’re gonna be “just another female”
I look back at shit and damn, love just don’t love me
nobody gonna say this is how its supposed to be
Am I complainin? Hells yeah im complainin
Give my fuckin all and what am I gainin?
I have the right to do so, can’t tell me I don’t
Imma get it because I deserve it, cant tell me I wont.
These other bitches complain, bitch for WHAT?
Nobody want you for a “wife” when you a lowkey slut
These heartbreaker ass females takin niggas down a notch
Shatter him all to pieces and then just watch
When I try to love him I gotta mend his heart
But this wall he got up is gonna tear us apart
These hot and cold ass brawds who fall in love every minute
Make it hard for real females who emotions are really in it
They quick to pass out, hand out, or give up the ass
Guess that’s why good girls like me will always finish last
Aint no way to do special shit anymore
Anything you try to do, has been done a billion times before
Females come, females go, won’t be no time for me
Irreplaceable? Nope, you better tell em B
Put a lot of time and heart into shit
Its like I get in the ring just to take another hit
Thought I knew what love was, but I really didn’t know
Took the love of one person to really help it grow
Took the love of another to really push it to the limit
I know they both love me, but neither are really in it
Not the right time, the right place, or the right thing
Gotta appreciate it for what it is for the time being
“when a good girl’s gone bad…” well y’all know the rest.
Nah not me, I look a life like a test
This shit is a crash course, not the final exam
Everything I’m not, makes me everything I am
To care a lot more, you gotta care a lil less
Gotta know that through it all “nesa you da bess !”
Life can throw a bow, knock ya teeth out, shit imma still be smilin
Hang with the boys on the weekend, “yo cousin, you wiiiiiilll’n” !
Have a few drinks while they spark up an L
Stop fuckin thinking so much and just in & exhale
I’m grateful for what I got and the people I get it from
So uh, right now I want you to give the drummer some

No ma really, give the drummer some !

Can’t touch the untouchable, break the unbreakable
Shake the unshakeable …
it’s nesie baby !
(repeats and two steps)

A little irrational at times, I may get beside myself, but I’m still the best thing since sliced bread, nigga.
Get chu a loaf !

People always say to act your age. Shit, I’m only 23. *takes note*

What you think you really want and really need, may not be what you need at all. So how do I stop craving it? How can I tell the difference?

Jealousy is a valueless trait, but I feel myself experiencing that emotion a lot. I don’t know why though, none of them can be n-e-s-a… guess I’m just stingy, especially when I’m not back in my comfort zone. Shit, I still question myself when it comes to dialing those numbers without prior consent. still don’t know when that happened.

i want my spot back, but shit…is it available?

Always trying to make some we time, when we both need me time

didn’t I say I was gonna stop over thinking? Shit, guess I cant help it. Maybe I need to speak up about things more. Nah, not my place.

Ahhhh, now I remember why my relationship was so convenient. Distractions !

funny how you and another female can be feeling the same shit, agreeing on the same shit, bout the same…damn…nigga. ouch.

You know, you could know that you could be the best thing for somebody, doesn’t mean they want ya ass. Lmao.

Speaking of which, if this were another time, and another situation, in another place, I could make him so happy. Dah well…

Its funny how the same love songs, the same heartbreak, the same emotion, the same stress that you feel for someone, they can be feeling it right along with you. LMAO, for someone ELSE !
Zing !

speaking of which !
aint it funny as hayulllll
how you can think something was so totally about you, and it aint?
fit you, but it don’t
can be, but it won’t
but i KNEW it. handled it like a cham-peen !
cookie cutter emotions?
maybe you were reaching?
replaced perhaps?
nah… right?
sometimes i wonder lol
would explain it !
fuckT up.
maybe i’m just looking for answers.
maybe i want something to be about me.

damn. attention whore perhaps?

I actually laughed out loud at that one right there.

Fake as friends
Lame ass lames
Nobody gets me
I wish my homie was here

wouldn’t it be nice if you could get the “buddy and the booty” ? she says jokingly.
Ha… i really didnt laugh tho !

Sometimes I think I’m annoying and irritating as fuck.
Ah well, I mean well tho…

Bitchy? Me?
So what, suck my dick.

i wonder if jamil got my message the other day?

Uhhh…
Its good to dream, but shit, when will I wake up?

Why do people never how amazing I really am? And if they do they still don’t appreciate it until its too late or I’m gone.
Not a complaint, just a realization.

i wish i could go with shan tomorrow :(

What the hell was I thinking about earlier that almost had me in tears?
I wonder if he noticed. Probably wasn’t paying attention.
Lol, I did suck that shit up quick though

i’m not cocky, or concieted. maybe a lil over confident in my way of thinking lately, but fuck if i aint earned it. i’m goin after mine.

fuck…all…that…shit…and…fuck…all…yall…too
lmfao, said it just like that ALOUD.
you better realize that.

Y’all do know tears don’t change shit?

lmfao. wtf did this text come from? new phone, no saved numbers. who in the hell???
its the country boy. should have known LMFAO. so fuckin random yo… (i was pondering that shit til i saw the area code)
my faves minutes used to go to good use when we were cool cool
i still say va sucks. population: me & you ass city. lol.
imma get my ass kicked….

sooo back to my thoughts…

Out of all the kisses…
Neck, forehead, cheek, shoulder, etc…
My lips have not felt another set of lips in forever.
That’s sad.
That’s a sign. Lmao.

am i becoming heartless?

“when a good girls gone bad, she’s gone forever”
damn, new blog coming soon…

I think lack of affection is driving me nuts. So much love to give and no one to share it with.
Its like my heart has blue balls lmao.

LMAO.

Okay, I must be sleepy.

When shit happens and you seem to not care, or you shrug your shoulders, or you just go “eh” or “=/”
You have reached “whogivesafuckphoria”

Not caring feels good, unless you really do care

I had more than a few good moments today.
Little things make me happy.
;]

i wonder when i think things, or say things out loud to you, do you hear them? lmao. that would be on some nextlevelhellyeahness!

Nesaspeak! aint that what kanTRE west called it? lmao, me likes. (lmfao, name came from that video) corona and singin dont mix! but it sure entertained me. i think that guy is HEElarious !

Plus I got my new phone today. Its dopeness.

I gotta find a way to start getting some sleep. This is out of hand. Maybe I’ll try the old way. Idk. I don’t feel like I’m there yet. slow and steady, i’m not goin nowhere.

Yeah, I’m enjoying the scenery. Letting things pass in slow motion.