“I see you back to actin like a nigga again”

Excuse you? Okay, okay…
You know, I won’t even trip because, I know I never really think within the same mind frame as most females. I barely get along with females. (yeah, every chick says that right?) but 95% of the time, I hear or see a female do some shit and I just wanna curse em the hell out. I mean, everybody does dumb shit, this we all know. But I mean, some things that people tell me are “normal” female actions or ways of thinking, I don’t get it. Or some of the females I encounter, complain tome about things and I’m like, fuck is the problem?

Examples…

- “I’m tired of him, all he do is lay around the house and play xbox”

Uh, so tf what? He has a job, takes care of his business and treats you good. You mad cuz he actually STAYS in the house with you? Stfu. Learn to play with him.

- “As soon as his boys call, he just up and leave”

Well, he always with you, right? Spends ample amounts of time with you, right? Okay.. Can his nuts get some wind under em? Just like you need “me” time, he needs “he” time.

- ”I’m so tired of him lookin’ at every bitch he see when we out”

Stfu, He lookin. Every nigga like ass and tits. Its gonna happen. He aint gawkin, he ain’t droolin, he just takin a peek. Plus he with you. Ain’t like he givin her the eye and tryin to holla at her. Trust me, her eyes are the last thing he lookin at. And stop actin like you don’t be peepin ol dude with the butter cream complexion and the waves when he walk by. You just more sneaky with your shit.

- “How hard is it for him to just call or text me?”

True. It takes all of 5 seconds to hit somebody up just to let them know you’re in their thoughts. But WHY does he need to keep in contact with you every hour on the hour? If you’ve spoken to him 1-2 times already, then hush.

- “Every time I tell him I love him, he act like he don’t want to say it back”

Bitch, that’s because every time you breathe you got to say it and every time he open his mouth you thinking he supposed to say it. All that I love you every time somebody enters or leaves a room is unnecessary. I think anyone who feels the need to do that, or needs to hear it all the time is insecure in their relationship and needs that as validation to convince them that he does love them.

I don’t know. Some of you females need to be kicked in the neck. Never satisfied with shit, then wonder why he gets tired of your ass..

Now, next topic that goes back to that 1st comment…

I was told that I act like my friends. One a male, one a female. “I used to get y’all confused” and “you act just like him. You always did, but then you stopped, but I see you back to it”

wtf, nigga stfu :blank:

Some times I feel like, if I had balls and a shaft, I’d be him. Which is scary in a way, lol. I’d probably be less crazy though. But point is, your real friends, you end up being friends, end up real close, because y’all have a lot of shit in common right? Think alike, act a little alike, like and dislike the same shit for the most part, right? “Yeah” he responds, so wtf? Why tell me I need to be myself. Isn’t that what I’ve been doing? I hope you choke on air. No friend having ass nigga. “I just keep to myself, people don’t get me” ass nigga.

Speaking of friends, I had a convo with one of mine, and the topic of relationships came up. Not being in one, but being fresh out of one and bitches and niggas treat you like fresh meat. Happy as shit for you to be back on the market. Couldn’t wait for me to change my myspace status to “single”. Did you have a fucking alert for that shit? And don’t come to me on no “aww, nesa nooo…what happened?” nigga you don’t care. You just wanna spark up random convo to try to ease back in there. We weren’t all that cool to begin with pimp. Give me some space. All of you who have pressed up one me within these past few week, you annoy me. Why do you think you get ignored? Why do you think I changed the subject? If I’ve walked away from you in the middle of a convo, why do you not get the point? Stop lowkey stalking me. I’m supposed to believe we check our mail at the same time everyday? Why you always outside around the same time I take my daughter outside to wait for the bus? YEEN got no kid. What are you doinggggg? No, I don’t wanna be your phone buddy. You aint had my number all this time, you aint getting it now. We didn’t chill before, what is different now? When imma be yours? NEVER. Shit. I was just in a serious ass relationship that went to shit. What makes you think I want to dive right into another one? I guess the fact that I want to get married and have more kids and buy a house out by the lake, makes niggas think I’m in a rush to do so. I wasn’t even rushing the nigga I was with into any of that. I questioned it, I had my reasons, but I wasn’t trying to roll out the red carpet and flowers. So please, do not get it twisted. My life doesn’t revolve around a relationship. I have people that love me and I can get attention from said people so I do not need yours. You are not a lion, I am not a gazelle. Please do not try to pounce on me. And what in the hot hell, makes any of you think, or even have the AUDACITY to think I want to discuss anything sexual in any way, shape, form, or fashion with you? Do you not realize I’ve been sexing the same person for years? You think imma just bunny hop on the next pole heading south? Gtfoh. I can do without. Most of you are walking sacks of STD’s anyway. I’d rather not, thanks.

You people annoy me. What were you doing while I was handcuffed? Whatever it was, go back to it. Thanks.

Some of the things I said in this video, I most certainly meant, but maybe not the way I said it.

The threats, well yeah… I’d really want to, but if things went down that way, I’d be so hurt and disgusted that I’d never be able to look you in your face again, so none of that would happen.

I feel like an insane bitch when I watch this video. Usually things like this I wouldn’t share with anyone, but I think this will help me heal. At this moment, in this point in time, I am crazy. Crazy as hell and it’s not just my fault, its your fault. Yours, yours, and yours. I’m nothing but loving, caring, devoted, dedicated and providing. I have my moments where I may be difficult or get on your nerves, but who doesn’t? Why am I not loveable? What do I do that makes you not want to be with me? Why am I only good for you when it benefits you? Why am I never good enough? Why am I always in competition? Why do I have to suffer because some females who didn’t deserve you, weren’t ready for you, took your heart and fucked it over? Am I nothing more than a phat ass and a cute face? Am I the one you love, or is it my assets? Can a convo be a real convo without it including my ass, sex, or your fantasy? Do you know my worth, or do you really think I’m cheap? Do you think I’m really fucking stupid? Why??

But in the end, guess what?
you’ll always be able to use this line: “Nesa, you’re not my girlfriend.” And I’m not. We’re both single now, right? Reality…

**And you, right at this moment, you are boldfaced lying to me and you know it. I sir, am not boo boo the fucking fool.
Sorry, had to add that because this nigga is fucking full of it right after i fucking get up. Anyway.

The written vent is just a lot of shit for more then one person. If it applies to you, you’ll know. Whatever, there’s the video.