I was sitting here all ready for a new update, but nothings really changed. Well, actually, some things have. Instead of prolonging it, and waiting to see something turn into nothing, I broke up with my boyfriend. We ended things on good terms, and we are still friends. We always have been and hopefully that will never change. I wished him good luck with his move and what not, but we just had to be realistic. We barely see each other enough now, there’s no way that he’s going to be driving three hours every chance he gets just to kick it. And the whole moving with him, Nah… not going to happen’ pimp. I wouldn’t move in with him while he here in the city, I most def wont be moving out of state with anyone. I have my daughter, school, and family to worry about. Not to mention if something went wrong and we had to part ways, I’d get sent packing with nowhere to go. Nah., I’m so cool on that. I’ve kind of been avoiding him lately, and when I’m not, I think he’s avoiding me. It’s like that every time something happens between us. After the awkwardness has passed, well be good. I think we both just need some time.
In the meantime, I’ve just been chillin’, having fun, and hangin with my friends when I can. I swear, having a group of male friends, if better than having a bunch of birds around all the time. It’s less drama, and way more amusing. Men are idiots, and they CLOWN when they get in a group. I find it hilarious. I really just don’t get along with females that well anyway. I think more like a male than I do a female on most things. Females will turn everything into a competition, or jealousy takes over the friendship for one reason or another. Too much arguing and cattiness for me. Either that or they just switch up on you and leave you hangin, and you have no idea why. With dudes, we can all just talk shit, have fun, and have arguments about nothing that just turns into us laughing at each other. (They do have a lot of moments when they act JUST like a bunch of bitches though.) Plus, as a female, I get away with a lot more. I never have to worry about someone NOT having my back, and I can count on them way more than I could any of my other female friends I used to always be around. Its nice having someone ask me if i need or want anything, without me having to ask. The females they bring around HATE me, and i dont even do shit. I love them niggas, but i don’t want none of them. :lol: Only thing I don’t like is the fact that in return, I’m always feeding these hungry muhfuckas. lol. :lol:
I think I’ll start dating now, too. I always say that when I end up single, but instead of weighing my options, I end up stuck with one nigga. Maybe that’s just how it’s meant for me to do it. I think it would be a whole lot easier if I could see how they all act; who will be the better boyfriend, then chose. I don’t know, I just don’t think I have the energy to deal with more than one guy at a time on a personal level. I get annoyed and frustrated easily. And heaven knows, men tend to irk my SOUL when it comes to relationships.
I’m tired, I’m bored, and I’m hungry… slowly growing irritable and I need to go do some work or something. I can’t wait until school is over. I’m getting tired of this mess. Well, at least that’s how I feel today. =/